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Tag....

I've been tagged. Yes Fai, I could've pretended not to see my name. But I chose not to. But that can wait....

So yesterday, me and Fai went to the Expo John Little sale. Wahhh... so many things but not much variety. Our main aim was to buy undergarments but in the end, I picked up a few things along the way.... as always. Chocolates included yes. 3 large bars at that. Heh. In my defence, they are for the family.

Anyway, we stopped by Tampines mall looking for North Indian food because knowing Fai she has to eat what her tastebuds feel like eating. Me? Well, I'm a see-food person. I see food, I eat. So yeah, we came across this hotdog place and I had the coney dog and its tastes exactly like the one A&W used to have. How I miss A&W....

Fai couldn't wait and before I could even take a picture, she had already bit into her New York hot dog. Yummy.

My delicious coney dog.... whee....

Yes back to the tag....
Here goes:

6 weird things about me:

1. Whether the weather is warm or cold, I sleep with my feet covered

2. I have a highly distractible mind, like that of a child (apparently I've been told).

3. If I wake up in the middle of the night, I can't go back to sleep. Plus it doesn't help that I'm a very very light sleeper. I can't have people snoring or walking into my room or talking when I'm sleeping. Which explains why my phone is on silent at night.

4. I don't have a favourite anything. I may like french fries today and hate it tomorrow.

5. When I read newspapers, I hardly read the news. I notice advertisements instead.

6. I'm a food person though on some days, I just don't feel like eating at all.... oooh my docter better not see this...

Is that 6 already? Cool. I can't seem to think of anything else, guess I'm not so weird at all huh? I'm just your ordinary, friendly, neighbourhood girl.

Let's change this game a little. I'm not gonna tag anyone. So all you creator of chain letters, looks like you can't rely on me. I'm no good at this. And since I'm already at it (breaking the rules) let me just add another weird thing about me that I just remembered.

7. Ermm.... hmmm... I just forgot what it was!!!!!! Maybe this is it. My brain has a mind of its own. I just went into the kitchen to get a piece of chicken nugget and I can't believe I completely forgot. Gosh, this is terrible.

Ahhh. whatever lah.

Free....

Over the lies, you'll be strong
You'll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no - Oh no
No you won't be mine

Take your straight line for a curve
Make it stretch, the same old line
Try to find if it was worth what you spent
Why you're guilty for the way
You're feeling now
It's almost like being free
And I know soon you will be

- You Won't Be Mine Lyrics, Matchbox 20

Forgiveness somehow sets you free for you no longer feel tied to the chains of disappointment, anger, hate, pain and regret.

Liberation, release..... I've somehow unshackled myself from this binds that tie me down.

Hate somehow pulls you down. Everytime. To all who hate me OR who have wronged me. I forgive you. Not because I hate you back but because I am indifferent to how you feel. In short, I do not care how you feel because you don't matter to me.

Afterall, the opposite of love is not hate. Hate is still a feeling. The opposite of love is in fact indifference. From you, I am distant.

Emancipated, I feel at peace.....

Thank you god. Syukur alhamdullillah

Follow Through

Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
I, haven't felt like this in so many moons
You know what I mean
And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet

So, since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through

- Follow Through, Gavin Degraw

Ok, so instead of the K880i, I settled for the Sony Cybershot K800i. I love the silvery white case. Very sleek and its just me. I mean I love the slim K880i but its too extravagant considering how I need money for school and yes, the engagement (insya-allah).

So yes, he ditched me to go KL. So I'm alone over the weekend. It doesn't help that Friday is a public holiday. What am I gonna do???!!!

Mister, you better have presents for me and my ankle socks. Thank you very much.

So yes, I might pop by vivocity after work today, get the book Fai kindly reserved for me and chill at pacific coffee over a cuppa and read a bit... Yes alone. Well if I can sit ALONE at delifrance and eat and watch the world go by, I'm very sure I'll survive coffee by myself.

Oh and maybe, just maybe, I might join Yanni at her new house nearby.

Anyway, I did this romantic pattern analysis Its so weird how some is sooooo true. Try it.

Lin, your romantic pattern is Love vs. Honor!

Love vs. Honor is the most dramatic pattern of all — defined by an innate tug of war between what you want to do and what you think you should do.

But, here's the recurring pattern you may see in your relationships: There is something coming between you and love. (how apt)

Romance is not your number one priority, though in the back of your mind you are holding out for a soul mate. In your pattern, you find your soul mate, only to discover you can't be together unless you give up something precious, or jeopardize other relationships or ideals that are important to you. The decision itself is at the heart of your pattern. How do you choose? If this is your one chance at true love, can anything be worth giving it up? Can you enjoy love knowing you've betrayed something dear to you to achieve it? Or will the love be stronger for your sacrifice. This pattern is about confronting your values and life choices. It's about reevaluating what's important to you and choosing to remain on the same path or move in a new direction.

In the movie version of "The End of the Affair," Julianne Moore plays a woman who makes a pact with God to stop cheating on her husband if her lover survives a terrible injury. When he lives, she's forced to keep her promise, breaking both their hearts in the process. All relationships, at some point or another, require sacrifices. These painful decisions are familiar to everyone. No wonder it's so easy to relate to this romantic pattern's historical, literary, and cinematic counterparts. You're living it!! (You're damn right I am)

Explains why I'm a little dramatic sometimes. My life is a movie in a movie...Complicated yup.

Thank you...

[Listening to: Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance]

Feeling: Groggy...

Now I know,
That I can't make you stay.
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your,

And I know.
There's nothing I can say.
To change that part.
To change that part.
To change.

So many, Bright lights they cast a shadow,
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding,
I'm incomplete?
A life that's so demanding,
I get so weak.

A love that's so demanding,
I can't speak.
I am not afraid to keep on living,
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay you'll be forgiven,
Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

- Famous Last Words Lyrics, My Chemical Romance

I love the lyrics... Its DEEP...

So Zamir decided to show. And he helped Yani carry her TV. Rubin drove the van and I sat at the back with Herman, Jeremy and Zamir. I love the wind in my hair. It's been way too long...

He was tired from his trip back from Muar and KL and work and still he came just so I didn't have to carry the TV. Mister, thank you. I owe you ok. Kway Teow goreng + chicken wing SATU!!! Coming rrright up!

Nothing and I mean nothing can keep him from soccer. He tells me I can but hey, I don't want sugar coated words. Show me. Hah.

I wanna buy a book. Pronto.

4 freakin kilometres...

[Listening to: Last Night - P diddy feat Keisha Cole]

Last night,

I couldn't even get an answer.

Tried to call,

But my pride wouldn't let me dial.

And I'm sitting here,

With this blank expression.

And the way I feel,

I wanna curl up like a child.

- Last Night lyrics, P diddy

I love this song for now....

I walked 4km today. I woke up at 6am and followed mum to this community centre event - brisk walking. We walked from Kallang Stadium to Suntec City. Me and Ben went with Mama and well, not bad. I could use fresh air at like 630am in the morning!

Ooohh... My hair is very black now.... hahah. previously when I dyed it dark brown, the colour came off and it became light brown. Now, its deep brown close to black. I like it. Thing is, with black hair, I look sorta pale.

I truly enjoyed spending time talking with Fai. We were at vivo to watch Pathfinder. So we found this book of birthdates and coincidentally, SOME and I emphasize, some are true. Some are just bullshit. One thing is true though. My home isn't really my home. It's a place I use to store things. Haha. I'm not a homely person. I can't even sit still for 2 minutes. Besides, I don't get emotionally attached to things or places. People maybe. But material things.... nah. Seriously now, if I had to move today, I would. I'd pack and go. I don't look back.

It's the same with this question, "If you were on a deserted island, what would you bring?" Besides unlimited food and a magical fridge that produces food every 2 seconds, I can't think of anything else. I do want to bring people but things, hmmm... well, a nice warm bed perhaps?

So yes I learnt that medicine + mocha is soooo wrong. My body couldn't decide whether it was sleepy / drowsy OR hyper. Eh? But Fai was not on drugs what, I was. What happened to her? We laughed till we cried our eyes out.... I still blame you for the stomach ache I had from laughing too much. Heh.

My lovely.

Anyways, I was PMS-ing and didn't feel like eating. It's like you're hungry but you're not. Believe me, its possible.

I wanted to eat something I've not eaten before.... So Zamir decided we go to Cafe Le Caire at Arab Street to eat. I had the chicken wrap and Zamir had the Bukhari Chicken. Not bad. The chicken wrap was JUICY. Thanks for lunch mister.

My chicken wrap

His chicken which was super HUGE....

He attacked my potato wedges!!!! Well, actually if he didn't I wouldn't have finished my food cos I was already thinking of ice cream. Heh... and I haven't even started eating. Check out the bottles of mineral water next to him.... Ok lar... I admit it, its me.

So yeah... I can see that he's trying. He's trying to be more spontaneous, more open to trying new things.... He knows I lurrrve new places, new things, new stuff. Thank you.... So he's asking me about OneRochester Are you gonna bring me there mister? Cos I've never been there.

There were mirrors on the ceiling, we couldn't help it.

Ok, I gotta go help Yani carry her tv. Whee! Mister, don't say that my will to carry is stronger than my actual ability to carry. I can't believe you actually called her to tell her that.... I won't drop her TV you know. I won't allow myself mistakes when handling people's things.... I'm strong like that. And no, the TV won't fall on me, thank you very much for your concern. I'm fine lah, now stop it.

And because of what you said, Fai said that my will to eat is stronger than my ability to eat which sorta equates to being gelojoh (greedy). Great..... thanks to you Mister Mean Boy, I have to live with this. And you mister, you have to live with my pinching you. Hah.