A red and pink entry...

If Only you knew how hard I work....

Why isn't it enough?

Get out of my face and stop breathing down my neck please. For once FUCK OFF. Yes, just fuck off. If you can't do me that favour then do it for yourself. I don't need you to validate my decisions / move.

I'm just angry and all I want to say is: "I hope you BURN in HELL bitch."

If its anything I wish for NOW, I wish you HELL, AGONY, TORTURE, AND A TORMENTED LIFE

There, I've gotten it off my chest.

Mister, I need a shoulder to cry on.

Musings of A Distracted Mind....

[Listening to: Beautiful Lie - 30 seconds to Mars]

so there i was at work busying myself with the report I was suppose to churn out when poof! the server decided to die on me... aaaagh. gggreat. so what did i do? i waited for mr. kidnapper to abduct me from this mental asylum. haha. and in the meantime I took some pictures. yes yes. im allowed to because im a cam whore and I'm officially crazy.

In my defence, let me first say that I was bored. At least I'm not like some people who pick their noses when they've got nothin to do

I was so happy when my phone rang... because i knew it was him and he's done with work! So off I went to buy tics for TNMT and we got great seats even though it was the weekend. Had lunch at Lucky Plaza's ayam penyet place since Zamir's never eaten there before. He said it was nice and similar to the 'wasabi' incident I convinced him to try the 'sambal' and bearing in mind the drinks had not arrived yet, you should see the look on his face. I was laughing like mad. yes I'm mean. anyway, lunch was very filling and i felt like i ate too much.

anyway, TNMT's story line was weak and the animation could've been better but I loved it anyway. The suckiest thing was that the theatre was sooo cold my feet were freezing and it almost felt numb. I had to put my legs on his lap while he covered them with his jacket and rubbed them just to make sure I was warm and comfortable. Sweet.

oooh and i found out something. don't talk to me while we're walking because i'll get easily distracted and won't pay attention. Apparently I have 'attention deficiency syndrome' also known as someone with a distractible mind. I've been told that I have an attention span of a minute or less. Whatever lah. So if you're talking to me whilst we're walking and I see something that catches my attention, then stop talking because i ain't listening. What distracts me? Oh anything really. It could be a sticker on the floor because i'll be wondering how it got there OR it could be a HUGE sale sign or even my toes, yes sometimes i find it funny when my toes wiggle. OR..... like the time I discovered that my last finger on both hands were of an unequal size. Apparently one is two times smaller than the other. How did that happen?

Ok ok I'm drifting again. Bring me back. That's all. Now you know why my entries are all like this.

Yes mister, I can still hear you say, "Tell me something new"..... *covers my ears you know what they say, if you can't beat them, then don't.

Mr. Silly boy and me...

Ayam penyet!!!

Mister, lets go karaoke-ing with Yani again. Please.... If you don't then sing me to sleep ok.

Be my getaway....

[Listening to: Back to You - John Mayer]

I remember when we met,
It took your whole life, your breath away
I remember when we kissed, as you drift into the sun,
So take the ride, now you take the fall and,
You weigh so shallow,
Wait for me, before you take it all away.
Far away, It's not like I wanted to,
Far away, It's not like I could breathe anymore,
Far away, It's not like, I wanted you,
But you're not for me, not for me anymore.

- Drift Lyrics, Forty Foot Echo lyrics

With hardly any makeup. It's Sunday and I'm at work thats why.

I'm at work and its Sunday. ugh. how sucky is that? The only good thing was the cab ride to work. Just when I thought I'd be able to listen to my ipod, the uncle in the cab starting chatting me up. So there I was cursing and swearing under my breathe because I've never ever gotten a cab driver who would just let me close my eyes and leave me alone. Even when I'm on the phone with Zamir sometimes they still insist on talking to me. Do I look friendly to you?

Anyway, I was glad that this uncle talked to me cos he told me of places not many have heard of? He said that I should go to Bangka Island in Indonesia. He said I only need bring S$100 Singapore dollars for 3 days and 2 nights and I'll eat like a king. And how they have a gorgeous scenery with waterfalls everywhere and hot springs somewhat like being in a spa. So there I was in the backseat lapping up every word he said. I was in awe. He taught me the best way to get there. With all that chatter, I was already imagining myself there. The whole cab ride was like a trip to somewhere itself.

Oh! And he told me of the best place to snorkel in Singapore. He swears that the water is like that in Tioman. What?!! I never knew such a place existed in Singapore... It's apparently called Golden Island. I tried googling it up but hmmm.. no luck. He said a boat from Changi Village would take me there. He told me that the island is deserted but alot of backpackers would be there. It all sounds so interesting. Mister, shall we go? Puh lease. Yesh yesh.... I know mosquitoes and insects and all but there's always insect repellent. Don't worry about me. My curiousity will surpass anything. Yes, anything. I'm one crazy curious cat.

Oooh and Zamir bought me a talking dog. A toy lah. It talks and it can say "I love you". Thanks noti.

Ok so all this talk makes me want to go holiday-ing... Any takers? Ok but it'll probably be in June cos I still have a few things planned in April. The hotel at Palm Resort will be on the 13th of April... apparenly its 2 people to a suite. And they have a bathtub. Whee.....

Surprisingly HE loves my 10 minute sambal sardin sandwiches. I made them in a hurry but he gobbled them up. Maybe he was hungry. Well, mister, then you'll love my 30 minute sandwiches. Hahah. My pleasure love.

Next Sunday is potluck day at Yanni's house. I can't wait. I'm making my famous sambal chicken. Hahah right. Ok I'm hungry now.

Happy Sunday all.

Bull....

You're so fake. I see past all that.

it's not that hard at all.

On another note, so yanni's been getting quite a bit of comments on her blog on the 'topic' huh? Hahaha. I've been checking it up often just to see what people have to say. In the end, I've just got this to say. If you can't handle confrontation, don't initiate it.

Check out this cupcakes I bought. They are so delicious. I was thinking of sending some over to the girls but there were only a few left. Cupcake Momma's cupcakes rocks. ok thats a handful to say out. Grabberz, you have to try this. And Yanni, Im sure this will cure your PMSes. Hehehe. I'll send a few once I order more batches.

I bought 2 boxes for my boyfriend and the family - a total of 8 mini cupcakes and I ate 2. How greedy am i?

They look much larger in pictures.

Mister, I know now. So let's do it.

Mister, you were there when I was really really sick. When I had gastric and was all grey. You carried my bag when i came home from work and brought me food when I was hungry. Thank you for the Mrs. Fields cookies. I ate em for breakfast. all of em. well almost. except for two cos I gave them to Yanni.

So I've yet to plan a date for my dad and zamir to talk. So guys watch this spot cos I might be able to give you a date. Hahah. no so fast lah. I think its time. I've decided and I've made up my mind. Let's just say, god opened up my eyes....

I can sooo smell the weekend. And we're watching Teenage Mutant Ninja turtles... whee.. i can't wait.

It's 830pm and I'm still in the office.... Such is work

And I can still take pictures... hahah cam whore.

Indulge is the word of the day

[Listening to: Goodbye Tonight - Lost Prophets]

and so the label said take 2 for the pain.

Heck, give me 8. I've got this report to churn out and its no easy feat. Ugh. I've got sales to do and closing clients. this isn't helping.

I feel like a matyr to work overload. We really need to hire soon. By end of March!!!!

Oh and check out Yanni's entry ......well said. Hehe.

Anyway celebrated Fai's bday with Nurul, Dee and Fai.. aka the Grabberz... Fantastic bunch. Nurul made reservations at the Silver Shell cafe @ Shangri-la Rasa Sentosa and the people there were fabulous. On top of the HUGE variety of food, the staff were always smiling, made small talk, and were extremely friendly. I cannot BELIEVE how much I ate.

I had sushi, oysters, barbequed stingray, tandoori fish (also known as kuih bakar), smoked chicken and a whole lot more. i had 3 different types of cake for desert and this is not inclusive of the bday cake which is soooo sinful. i also had bread and butter pudding which i was craving for yonks.

Nurul was sooo sweet, she had people singing for Fai and even surprised her with a delicious CAKE... Fai couldn't have asked for more...

thank you girls for this. Nurul especially. she treated all of us and im still shameless asking her for staff room rates. hehe. Fai happy bday (I hope we've indulged you enough) and Dee, I hope you like the bear, it isn't much.

for the first time in my life yesterday, i felt as if i'd eaten a whole months worth of rich foods. ooooh. at the end of the day, we girls were drunk with laughter.....i almost threw up in the bus.
Can you believe that I'm still groggy from too much food. food hangover.

On another note....I can't wait to go Palm Resort in JB.... Yani did this barter with them and we have a deluxe suite + breakfast buffet, food massage... and FREE for 3 days and 2 nights.... wah I'm soooo excited. The deluxe suite would've cost us S$400 per night but because it s a barter we don't have to pay and Yani's invited me.... whee!!!! Thanks babe.

Anyway, check out the pics we took yesterday. I love the girls.........

Me and my lovelies

Yes, I'm stoned... fact is I ate too much.

My gorgeous dessert.

Me and Miss Beauty Queen.

Me and the petite Miss Dee

And lastly... tadah!!!!! The birthday girl.... Happy Bday love

A Can of Worms

Mira sent me something yesterday morning and I had a read....

http://www.ridzwan.com/2006/11/malay-marriage-mess.html

This evoked alot of thought and opinions. Well if you haven't read it yet, go and have a read.

well i agree to some things he has to say because if it means that Malay men have to buck up or pull up their socks, good.... but.... personally, some of which he said sounds rather chauvinistic to me.

Come to think of this, it all boils down to responsibility. The comment shouldn't be on Malay Women's Standards / Low expectations. Its gender discrimination.

Some people, are just not responsible. its never abt standards cos standards are never the same between people. If the woman and the man are not responsible in making a marriage work, it will not work. I mean at times, a marriage to a rich man may not work out, not because we women do not have standards, but its because he isn't responsible. Same goes for women. It all boils down to the individual and their characteristics. Different situations call for different actions and have different outcomes. We cannot place them all in one general classification.

Now tell me, define standards. Different people have different definitions on what the standard is or should be and I can't go out trying to change the minds of the majority. So let me just stick to mine, and you can stick to yours. There's no need to compromise on that.

Besides, Gender, Race, Religion are touchy topics. If you really have to talk about them, you'd have to be extremely sensitive and tactful. If you can't be sensitive about it, then just don't start.

We don't want to open a can of worms.

People are disturbed not by things but by the view they take of them. They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel."

- Carl W. Buechner

Random Affections....

A cynic's verse...

True love is suicide...
like sipping cyanide
a pain and slow death creeps
and alone in bed you weep

- Written by Lin in 5 minutes. I was just inspired lah.

Chances were never meant to be given, only earned. Sounds familiar huh? So don't expect the forgiving to forgive just as you won't expect the sun to shine in rain.

The problem won't go away when you try and ignore it. It stays somewhere embedded in your head. It only takes a flicker of remembrance or a moment of reminiscence to evoke these thoughts. Just when you thought it was all over. Apparently the sub conscious works even when you're conscious. Now how is that....

Oooooh and I can't wait for my 3rd exotic dance class tomorrow.... Someone's bringing Sexy back... *laughs & giggles.... Well if its anyone is bringing sexy back, it ain't me....

Wipe that smirk of your face already.

And SOMEONE's turning 21. So you think you're old enough to watch RA movies huh? But can you handle it? Hahaha. Ok I was kidding. Bite me.

And Su, cut the 'he said she said bull shit.'

Make Us Disappear.....

[Listening to: Sweet Escape - Gwen Stefani]


Let us not play this game
The last time we did
This heart you maimed

So we went to West Coast Park to catch the sunset. The place was packed with people and the playground was filled with kids but it was fun. I should bring Haqmal there one day - he would love it.... We didn't stay long there cos it was getting dark and the lights were dim so we left at around 730pm to eat at West Coast hawker centre. They have fantastic food there. I love their roti john and rojak.

Anyway, I love my new Compaq laptop. Hehe. So here I am watching tv while surfing the net, thank god for wireless excess. No more fighting for the computer and using the internet cos everyone has their own laptop / pc.

On another note....

Friends....

[Listening to: Every Word - Sade]

Feeling: Angry

A friend is going through hell and it sucks cos I can't do anything. I wished things were easier for her... I pray god will lighten her load. Time will tell. I wished that people who keeps hurting her will stop their pretentious and horrible ways.

This is one of the reasons why like her, I have trust issues. I don't have many friends not because I can't but because I don't want to. When I have friends, I treasure them and I back them every step of the way, and they can count on me to tell them the truth even if it hurts.

I don't have many friends because I can't attend to them all. I already have a handful of gems and I'm not greedy for more. Me Anti-social? Well whatever. Everyone stands alone. We need people to lean on but ultimately, we're all alone. Try judgement day.

On another note, I was at the MAC event yesterday. Not bad, the models were gorgeous.

Me at the Barbie Loves Mac event... Sorry Fai no extra goodie bag

My guardian angel or police? u decide... haha inside joke lar...

The models... well don't ask.

Of Huge Bananas...

[Listening to: No Need To Argue - The Cranberries]

Feeling: Sleepy

We waited 30 bloody minutes for our Banana fritters @ Thai Xpress. They said it was Burnt the first time and are redoing it. Burnt my ass. We were hungry....

"My Mum fries bananas and it doesn't take this looong" Fai gripes.

Haha.

We ate, talked, shopped and I bought this gorgeous silk green top @ Zara. I contemplated getting the dress but decided to forgo it.

If its anything I realised with my conversations with Fai is that we people play the 'blame' game much too often. When someone ditches you, its a common perception that they're bad. In some cases, well, its true but in some exceptional ones, its NOT. When two people who get together with totally opposite characters, personalities and opinions, there's bound to be conflict.

We sometimes find alot of excuses to leave, we don't find a reason to stay. Yani got it out of book.

I beg to differ though. In circumstances when you're betrayed, cheated on it no longer becomes an excuse - it becomes a reason to leave because there is no reason to stay.

Don't look back for that is where all the pain lies.

Why am I pouting? Cos Im vain.. thats why

Mister I want this... for you know what...

Why do I feel like a yoyo?





I'm kinda numb
It's so distorted
You left me here with this damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
Those fucked up places
In my memories none of them I've lost, but...

I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.

It's kinda sick
I feel so dirty
I'm kinda tragic kinda insecure
But I know that I'm the only one
that can fix whatever's wrong I'm sure, but...

I wish that this would just go
I feel so alone
From all I've become
I'll take you down
I'll feel so down
I'm water while you drown
You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb
I'm the needle in your spoon, but...

- Just Go Lyrics, Staind

You, you're my calm after the storm....

[Listening to: You Had Me - Joss Stone]

Feeling: Uptight...

Something is bloody wrong with my blog. I've been posting entries but they don't appear. what the hell.

In life, sometimes we make decisions based on feelings, emotions, gut feel or even after much thinking....

Sometimes, just sometimes, we make decisions based on the fact that we have no choice.

It's like you're running from a lion and you realise that you've gotten yourself on the edge of a cliff. You either jump OR stay.

I chose to jump.

Maybe the idea of being eaten alive, kinda scares the hell out of me. So yeah, I'd rather die body splattered on the floor than have my bones being chewed on by a hungry lion. Ugh.

I tried uploading a collection of pictures of me and Fai which i edited but i couldn't. something is wrong with my server. darn.

on the brightside.... wee. am having dinner with Fai tonight. Shall we have banana fritters and coconut ice cream at thai express OR satay & fish soup at lau pa sat? hmmm.

Ooooh! And I have a M.A.C event to attend tomorrow. I hope they give great door gifts.

Some have asked why my blog is no more private? well I've got nothing to hide. Things have picked up and I'm happy. It's like being on drugs... or sugar high. So, my drug, as long as you keep me sedated, I'm yours to keep.

On another note. Dear god, forgive me for my sins..... and forgive those around me for theirs.

The Past is But A Cemetery Drive

[Listening to: Say It Right - Nelly Furtado]

Feeling: Slightly numb...

Had lunch with Mira and Linda today. weee.... nice. It's been a while since we had lunch together and today is the first in a very very very long time..... i miss the girls.

why wallow in the past when its long gone. why weep for the dead and mourn for all thats lost. because we're human thats why. the heart heals not in seconds...

Wah a client just sent me a link to her website and the heading said, "Eventually it will heal"... Talk about coincidence.

Fai and me @ Bottle Tree

Had a great weekend. Last minute, he took leave just so he could spend the weekend with me.... sweet. Went to JB to get my Sims game and DVDs.... and of course tiramisu... but the tiramisu at Season's sold out. So sad. Had lunch at "sedap corner" hahaha. he said that its such an original name. Mister, you're mean. Why don't you come up with one yourself? Beat that.

I had spagetti ala thai... i think its nice and the portugese egg tart rocks!

I bought the Sims 2 along with the other expansion packs. While Zamir kept asking the vendor questions about installing the game, I couldn't care less and dived straight in and said, I'll take it. Such is the disparity in our personalities. I'm eager and blinded by excitement while he approaches everything with caution. Slow and steady is the word. Me? I'm always in a scurry and clumsy.

So for the life of me. Shut up.

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
Do you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonite

- Say it Right - Nelly Furtado

And you, move on.

It's not easy... So buy me A New Life.....

[Listening to: Give it To Me - Nelly Furtado feat. Timberland]

Feeling: Slightly edgy.....

Went to Masala art (www.masalaart.com.sg) yesterday to celebrate my sister's great results and the fact that she could get into a university of any choice. So I made reservations there at 8pm. Actually Herman helped me make reservations cos it is his cousin's restaurant. Haha so I got a discount....

Place is Beautiful. I love fine dining and the buffet had a huge spread. I love the variety. And I ate to my heart's content. So full.

Papa, Me and Haqmal...

Mama and me

Ben and Widad

So yeah. I'm happy. I am. I just don't know it yet..... Don't ask.

Mum's been terrific. She makes me breakfast and packs them for me every morning.... and pastes post-its on them that says, 'I love you', 'You can do all u want if you put your heart and soul into it', 'Its Monday but happy working'....

I love you Ma....

I've Tried....

[Listening to: I Try / Sick cycle Carousel - Lifehouse]

Feeling: Sleepy

Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
Well here we go now one more time
'cause i tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I can get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I tried to beat this

So when will this endIt goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this
I guess i was wrong

- Sick Cycle Carousel Lyrics - Lifehouse

Of the sleepless nights... shh. dun tell.

Is equality too much to ask for?

Is this so much a patriarchal society that everything seems to be in their favour?

I'm not asking to be seen. I'm only asking to be heard. Merely asking for a voice to be heard and acknowledged, my voice

I need to feel that my opinions matter as much. I need to know I matter. Thats is how I know I'm loved.

rules of the patriach

yeah, till death do us apart

My Anchor...

[Listening to: Blind - Lifehouse]

Feeling: Bloated.... bleagh

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

- Blind Lyrics, Lifehouse

I found this in my photo album... Hahah way back in 2004... I didn't even know who Hritik Roshan was back then. Imagine that! Being a cam whore, when the girls asked me to pose for a picture with them, I did. So thats his wife, she's sweet and I can't believe I had my eyes closed.... DARN! This was when I was part-timing at GUESS Paragon!

i like this phrase, "You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person."

Reminds me of someone. *smiles at Fai.

Farah's been extra quiet.... i hope she's not dead.

I can't wait for the tenants to move out of my condo. Cos I wanna stay there for a couple of days. Er, move out please.

I just bought a DKNY watch. Bloody expensive BUT let me justify my spending by first saying that I need a watch... and its something simple. Besides, I'm not a watch person but I realised that I need to wear one cos i keep asking ppl the time and its irritating. check this out! I so like this. I think it comes in black and silver too but I kinda like the one in bronze.

My exotic dance / lap dance classes start today. So exciting. It's been so long since I exercised. wah, I'm sure to sweat.

so yeah. congrats to my sister who got 2 As for her A levels. She can go to any university she wants. Good for her! We're suppose to have dinner tonight but with my classes, well I don't know lah!

I feel like baking brownies. I know, I know, I'm being very random.

Mister, when are we going for lunch at Scarlet?

You, You're my anchor... you keep me sane, even if its for that short moment in time ....

The Littlest Things....

[Singing to: Littlest things - Lily Allen]

Feeling: Ok....

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things

Dreams of you and me

It seems, it seems

That I can’t shake those memories

I wonder if you have the same dreams too

The littlest things that take me there

I know it sounds lame but it’s so true

I know it’s not right but it seems unfair

That thing’s are reminding me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend

Even if only for one weekend

So come on Tell me

Is this the end?

- Littlest Things Lyrics, Lily Allen

I was quoted.... http://sinfully-sober.livejournal.com/ Hahaha.

Anyway, yeah, I'm not a pro at love. I can never understand it wholly myself. All I know is what I speak through experience - My own and others.... Heartbreaks are inevitable. Sometimes you wonder why it is that even after someone has broken your heart, you still yearn for them. It's the familiarity you miss because somewhere in the back of your head, you wished things could've been different. Well, unfortunately for us, we can't change the past. All we then need to do is learn to let go..... the past is long gone, sometimes we harp on it so much so that we ignore what we actually have on hand..... and the hard part is that we can't help it....

Matters of the heart are complicated. You can want someone, yet not want him. You can be with someone, yet not be with him cos your heart is not there. You can see the reality, yet you don't see it..... because you're blinded.

If it's anything I've learnt, I learn that who you're with may not be your ideal but its ok because nothing is perfect. He may not be able to feel that passion you used to but as long as he feels like home, you know you're loved and you're safe...

You can't have things your way. You can only plan. The rest is entirely up to god and fate. My future lies in HIS hands. I've given up insisting that my life be THIS way....

I'm sorry if I am being difficult at times.... its not easy...

I can't do this ANYMORE.

Im serious.

Love is nothing really. But an endless sea of emotions...

The World Isn't Round....

[Listening to: Dark Messages - Air]

Feeling: Quiet

Why doesn't the world stop when you want it too???

Duh......

Cos you're not god.

So I can only pray.

Anyway, I was at the Getty Images party last night at Artery Bar, Red Dot. Loved the place. A really cool place to chill and talk. Music is a tad bit too loud but I had fun. Oh, and someone said I look like Shakira. right... its definitely not a pick up line because im sure he's gay. make that double sure.

Ooooh and I finally met Rachel Dennis, the Regional Marketing Director from Getty. SHE is an ABSOLUTE darling.

Let me vomit my thoughts....

Im tired. Internally, Physically, Emotionally, Mentally, What-eva-lly.

I could use a walk by the beach.

Or a shopping escapade.....

I want a watch and an ipod video.

Oh, I won a lucky draw at the event yesterday - lunch for 2 at the Scarlet hotel. I heard that this boutique hotel is gorgeous. Weee!! I wanna go. I hope HE can find the time of day to go with me... cos its just lunch and its far.

Another publication tried to poach me yesterday. Offered me a basic of 3K + $500 transport allowance, whether or not I use it, on top of commission, profit share, bonus and extra commission if i help sell their events as well. She promised an average income of about 5K a month and it really is enticing. Thing is, I'm happy here and I'm not ready to leave. Plus when it comes to special editions I earn about the same here anyway. The job there requires me to travel to Europe, Hong Kong, Thailand, France.... cool huh? But I've decided not to take it up. Money's not everything....

You're my medicine mister. You're hard to swallow but you're good for me...

Enjoy the weekend people.

Love is never a guarantee...

[Listening to: Sweetest Goodbye - Maroon 5]

Feeling: slightly melodramatic... like how is that possible...

Watched Jetaime Paris at Cathay and I loved it. The movie is in French but there were subtitles so it was ALL good. There were 16 or 18 short stories all about love and it lasted for about 2 and a half hours. And the end of the show, I felt emotionally exhausted cos the movie evoked different feelings of love and experiencing them all in 2 hours is really tiring. Imagine feeling sad one minute and laughing the next. Talk about emotional rollercoaster rides.....

Love is:

Hardest when - you have to let go. To know that whatever the outcome, it would be god's will. We somehow think we control the situation, when we actually do not.

Weirdest when - there is 'that' someone whom you wish you can be with and who wishes to be with you too but the weird thing is you can't because you don't want to.

Confusing when - you don't know what you want. The ONE who offers you stability OR the one who just makes you happy. Happiness is short-lived, it doesn't last forever. Stability is knowing that you're safe and secure and there are no risks involved. But can you live your life being stable and unhappy. That, is a question many have no answer too. The ideal is to have both.

Sad when: They break your heart

Happiness when: for that brief moment in time you feel bliss

Cruel when: you find your soulmate only to realise that there is no way you can be together

Light when: You feel alleviated because of the knowledge that someone will always be there

So love is really, your own interpretation of what it is. Matters of the heart is best UNSAID... For it should be felt. Words never do it any justice. So for a brief moment, I shall dig deep into this heart and assess what matters most to me.

Us at Company Luo Hei